My heart has been elevated. A new excitement flows within my veins and carries me forward with a confident urgency in what is to come. No longer do I exist within a world of self-indulgent therapeutic moralism, but rather within a furious pursuit of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Now I have a new purpose of sharing my pursuit of life with those around me. It is my job. It is my school. It is my city. It is my friends. It is my family. It is my life. It is my mission.
But the most profound feeling within me is that of joy. Instead of seeing life and the responsibilities that come with it as an unavoidable duty, the opportunity that I have to face those things is a delight. I am waiting for school to begin right now and I have a lot of free time on my hands so I know that it will get more difficult and frustrating, but this year already feels different. And that is because of the condition of my heart. There has been a particular scripture on my mind and in my prayers a lot lately. It comes from Isaiah 26:3-4 and it says:
You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.
I am praying earnestly that I would continue to experience that type of relationship with the Lord. Because when I become frustrated, angry, depressed, bitter, or hopeless in response to people or circumstances in my life I have removed my perspective from Christ and his sacrifice and have placed it instead on those people and those circumstances with the expectation that I can control them. My mind is not stayed on my Savior. But the promise of that passage is encouraging to me and it is one that has sunk into my heart lately.
This school year is going to be amazing. Some really exciting things will be happening in my life and I am looking forward to using this blog as an outlet both for sharing those moments as well as the lessons I am learning in my own walk with Christ. Paul’s letters continually speak of walking in the new self, a pursuit of and growth in love for the person and works of Jesus, and a distancing from the old self which is “earthly” and wordly. This means dying to yourself daily in order to follow God’s will for you. It is not an appealing lifestyle to the world and more specifically our culture which believes we are empowered and fulfilled by the works of our hands, but the Bible says that the righteous works of our hands are like filthy rags before the Lord. The Gospel counters man-made culture often because it is the Word of God and the exapnsion of His will which is not our own selfish and sinful will. It is contrarian. But it is joy.
And my heart will attest to this.